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Feb. 9th, 2012 12:41 am
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There have been a number of jobs that have passed by recently, and I have gotten a no on all of them.  The problem?  I don't have a security clearance.  Not secret.  Not protected.  Not even baseline.  And because of that, nobody is willing to consider me.  It's like this is an extension of the whole "you need to have public service experience" mentality that I came across in other positions.  This is just another way to say it.  They won't look at me without a security clearance, and I there is no way to get a security clearance unless I am employed in the public service.

This has meant me having annoyed conversations with a couple of agencies.  It's kind of hard to react to this in a way that doesn't conclude that there is some kind of ridiculous and elaborate conspiracy against me.  One job said I didn't have enough experience (which is not even close to being true) and that I should look at roles at a lower level.  Another job, at that same lower level, said I was too experienced and too qualified and that I would get bored.  It seems I am in a zone of unemployability, and have been for several months.  Moreover, I have been reliably informed that any job I apply for now may not end up with a result for several more months.  Apparently there have been delays of six months to fill a three month job.

This is not that big of a problem in a financial sense, or not as much as it would have been this time last week.  The market has done very well (for me) this week.  Wednesday was the best day in the history of the stock market, as my gains at the close were slightly higher than my gains on Monday.  VMG is the main cause.  It jumped at long last and there is suddenly lots of interest in it.  My options have nearly tripled in value in a month.  With the money from selling SNL for a profit arriving in my account today, I am cashed up with plenty of flexibility.

Part of me looks at the job front and the investing front and thinks "why am I bothering with the public service culture that seems to have it in for me.  F*ck the public service.  Just f*ck 'em."  I've got a rugby trip coming up at the end of May, and I have no reason to believe I will work a single day in the kind of jobs I have been applying for between now and then.  When one of my agencies rang me asking if I was interested in a position, my response was "is there any point?"  Maybe I will just continue to be drastically underemployed with my training and trivia and and some freelance work (which, to be perfectly frank, has not existed at all.)

The thing is, things won't always be like this.  I can't depend on always getting things right in the market and things could change o the work front.  My agencies are stunned that it has taken so long, though one of them, the one that forgot about me entirely for months, seems to have been stunned into forgetting I exist again.  The person whom I had somewhat harsh words for a month ago and who was very good at getting back to me right away, even saying hello in the supermarket a couple of weeks ago, still has not responded to an e-mail I send last week.

So maybe I've had enough of the public f*cking service.  I think I may rethink what I am looking for if this is how they are going to treat me.

Off to Sydney in the morning, to start of a few days of lots of travelling back and forth.

Date: 2012-02-08 05:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Fuck public service, indeed. Where will you go if you choose to ditch it?

Great to hear the market is treating you well, at least.

Date: 2012-02-09 08:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I nearly got a job in one department before there was a hiring freeze. My luck could change. There has just been a lot of annoyances in a row recently.

I'll have to reassess my options to decide where I can go. I was probably going to do that anyway. This may just speed up the process.

Date: 2012-02-08 08:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Woo! for stock market winning.

Date: 2012-02-09 08:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
There were cash flow concerns for a little while but that is now behind me. Woohoo!


Date: 2012-02-09 05:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sarena perez (from
Perhaps you should consider becoming a trader. You seem to be doing well and making a profit and professional traders can make a crapload of money. Possibility?

Re: Trading?

Date: 2012-02-13 12:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I would need a LOT more of a cushion before I could do this for a living. And then there would still be the question of "what do I do with my life?" I'm not convinced that I would be happy just doing that. I would need something else, and that sense of purpose is hard to establish and hard to fake.


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