Time to A.C.T.?

[luckycanuck]

I went to the psychologist this afternoon.  It went well I guess.  Some of it was a blur, but there was a lot of venting on my part which means she got a fair idea of what is eating me.  She specialises in Acceptance and Commitment Therapy.  I'm not quite sure what that means but she referred me to some reading material on the subject.  I guess it makes sense, but I went into screensaver mode and kept losing the plot whenever she explained it.  I'm not sure I have the mental bandwidth to work it out right now.  I think I will go back though.  She seemed to pick up on me feeling remote and alienated from life and work, and I felt comfortable telling her things after talking for a while.

There are too many people in this office.  The whisperer isn't whispering today, but he is sitting there in my space.  (Also he has an annoying nickname for our receptionist which I hear about twenty times a day.)  There is nowhere in the office for me to shut out everyone.  I spent about fifteen minutes in the kitchen undisturbed, but hanging aroud kitchens for no reason is odd behaviour and if I stay there too long I might be discovered and be asked if I'm ok.  There is a reception in the boardroom right now with a whole bunch of people present.  I've not stepped in there and I hope none of them will come to my part of the office to introduce themselves.  I went down to the cafeteria to get some dinner about half an hour ago, and couldn't decide on anything.  Some things weren't listed and detailed in full, and that set me off.  So I left without getting anything and wandered around the halls for a bit.  I can't do that for too long, however, because someone might spot me and my thousand yard stare.

So here I am, hungry but can't figure out what to do about it, needing space but unable to find it.  I will get through today as long as nothing further sets me off.

Oh, good news.  The Food and Grocery Council wants me to come in for an interview next week.

The question might become "do I want to take on a new job at a time like this?"  I did very well with the first interview and will likely do well next week.  If I am offered the job, will taking it be a excessively big decision for someone who can't even decide on dinner?